It’s been a while since I have posted anything and I have been pondering whether or not to share this, but I do think it is worthwhile. I hope I don’t offend anyone by writing this post. These are my own personal thoughts.
Since Tyler’s passing I have been thinking a lot about my faith and beliefs. I have always been taught to believe in God, but have always been a little bit of a skeptic on that subject.
Science over the years has taught us a lot about things that we did not previously understand. The Greeks and Romans and others worshipped many gods and used them to explain things they did not understand. I have often wondered if we are doing the same thing with our God. Is there really such a thing as a spirit? When we leave this world do we go on to Heaven? Is there really anything after this life? I cannot honestly answer these questions and the truth is no one REALLY knows. I know a lot of people believe and have faith and I hold nothing against those people. Actually, I envy them a little for having such strong beliefs, but I tend to take a logical stance about this and simply just don’t know and have no proof. I do honestly hope there is more to us then just what we are here and now but I just don’t know. Is that just our human ego to want more?
Since my loss here is what I do know.
Tyler has left a positive impact on all sorts of people and will never be forgotten.
Several of his friends stop by every once in a while to visit to see how we are doing and let us know how they are. Many of them have offered to help out to do things like shovel snow off the driveway this winter (so far it looks like they won’t have to do that). His friends from school are still tweeting and posting things about him. We have been given money for his memorial fund that the students raised by selling wristbands (I have what is left if anybody wants one). I also want to thank the many people who also have given so generously to his fund.
Baseball season is not yet here, but if we run into someone from Tuckahoe they are asking about how we are doing and they let us know they have been thinking about Tyler too.
We got more Christmas cards this year then we have ever received. Many of them with personal notes to us offering prayers and support.
People I have not seen or spoken to since high school are reaching out on Facebook and commenting on posts about Tyler. It’s all pretty amazing. Someone I talk to regularly who did not know Tyler mentioned how amazed they were at the all the media coverage he received. We hear from so many and I know there are many more who don’t know us that think about him.
Some people may say that is Tyler’s spirit talking to us and perhaps maybe that is what people mean when they talk about someone’s spirit. I just know that even if it is not, Tyler will live in all those people’s hearts forever as he lives in mine. And for that I am grateful.